Someone please tell me I didn't deserve this??

Me and my SO have been together for 3 years. In the beginning we got together after a hookup. He was a pot head. I moved to a new city for him. I'm a very nurturing person and often cooked and cleaned for him. We had major issues with sex where he was never interested. At one point he got too high and told me he doesn't know if he loves me, or just loves what I do for him. We broke up because his anger outbursts, then got back together. We had issues a year later due to him wanting to have a 3 way relationship and it affecting my mental health. We broke up and got back together again.

This last year and a half we swore we'd give it our all. We got pregnant and had the most amazing little girl. He never cooks or cleans anything. He often leaves messes for me. He'd leave for work during the week and then on the weekends expect me to take care of him, prep a weeks worth of food and still maintain the house, pets and kids (I have a prior son) no matter how much i begged for help. He has horrible hygiene and has continually given me utis and yeast infections, including a yeast infection so bad it was down my thighs. He didn't care about anything I said and often made me feel like a bother when I spoke. He'd make comments on the attractiveness of other women, including ones he had a past with, yet we had an unhealthy sex life. He didn't enjoy giving me oral sex nor cared if I got off at all. He'd constantly push for anal and at one point put it in my ass and when I told him to take it out said "I'm almost done" and tried to keep going. I freaked out and told him I was going to punch him in the face if he doesn't stop, he stopped. I am a SA survivor and it's been extremely triggering. He made comments about my post partum vagina and recently told me he could "be more attracted to me because we're both getting fat and ugly".. I haven't gained any weight our entire relationship, nor did my daughter change my body. He's gained 50+ lbs however and I always tell him how much I love him. He mocks me during fights and calls me crazy when I express my emotions trying to communicate. We're been off/on are we going to fix this or not. He blames me for him no longer partying and having a ton of friends to smoke with. He also has a raging porn addiction that he refuses to fix or get help for. Last night he told me after over a year into our relationship he didn't even love me and told his friends that. He just liked how I took care of him but he "fell in love along the way". I was finally done. I told him to never touch me again and that I'm moving out. I know it's the right decision but I love him so much.. please someone tell me I didn't deserve this. My confidence is ruined. Now he's telling me I ruined our family