In the past I was ttc for shortly over 6 months ; and then gave up and started taking birth control again than I was diagnosed with PCOS .

I than talked with my doctor and quit taking my birth control , and the first month was hard . The negative tests up until I got my period .

I’m now on month two , and am on the wait for my period I’m waiting to take a test until I actually miss a period or it’s late to stop false hope .

I want to give up again because of the toll this is taking on my mental health . But at the same time I really want a baby .

I find it’s made my depression so much worse , and I’ve been more irritable and sad latley. When I got negative tests I would cry so hard I would puke , and get nose bleeds . When I got my period I was too sad to get out of bed for awhile .