Ranting

Miracle

In 2019 I decided to seek help for my mental health. Ive been dealing with depression and anxiety since I was a kid. I always thought it was a phase that I was going through and thought I would grow out of it but here I am 23 and still deal with the same problem. I turned down the options to use medicine to treat my mental health, last year I had decided to make lifestyle changes such as eating healthy, going to the gym, sleeping schedule and etc. Everything was going good for 3-4 months. Then I just start to lose interest in everything, it was hard for me to do daily things like work, showering, brushing my teeth. I would just turn my phone off and lay in bed I can't get the strength to get out of bed. A year later this are worse I lose interest in everything, but I always over work myself to provide for myself. I worry about everything and put alot on my mental. I get up every morning feeling depressed and upset, I just want to hide in the house in my room I hate having to pretend I'm okay when I'm not. Sometimes I don't know what to do I get so depressed and overwhelmed I feel my only out is becoming homeless or self harm. I can't keep a job long because of my depression and bipolar disorder, I can't handle being around people yet alone I can't stay focused on one thing. I'm tired all the time no matter how much I sleep. I'm just mentally exhausted and drained. It's so hard to find the help that I need. I kinda lose hope in ever getting help.

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Have you done talk therapy? I’ve been going because I’ve been dealing with the same exact stuff you mentioned for years now. It helps enough to take the edge off and I actually look forward to it. I know it’s somewhat of a luxury but If you can swing It I’d recommend you do.

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Miracle • Oct 9, 2022
Yeah I tried I'm still searching for the right therapist. The last 2 I had one was a counselor and couldn't help me for what I needed and the other therapist I had was just after the money. Right now I'm just winging it until I find the right help I need but it's doing more harm waiting