No foreplay…every time

I feel horrible for feeling this way but I need to get it out.

It upsets me that my husband everytime we have sex will just go upstairs, lay on the bed, make himself hard and wait til I realize what he wants. He doesn’t talk dirty to me or make out and then we go upstairs. He then watches me get undressed and usually immediately wants me to give him a BJ and then wants me to ride him.

There is no foreplay for me, which leaves me struggling to get turned on and most of the time I don’t get off. I’ve expressed to him how I would enjoy foreplay with kissing, touching, sucking my boobs, etc. but it doesn’t happen. If I want something different I have to wait until he is done.

He does struggle with low T and is very self conscious but I can’t help but be hurt that he wants to do things this way every time and that he has to make himself hard before anything with me, I feel like I am not enough and that I’m just an object to him to get off.

What can I do?