Stuck between a rock and a hard place

I have an emotionally abusive husband with severe anger issues. We have maybe 5-10 good days a month the rest of the time he’s mad at me for some little thing or other. My parents are divorced and I feel like it would look sooo bad if I was too. I’m from a very conservative family barely anyone divorced let alone two from the same family. It would scream red flag if two divorced women live together. It just would. Any guy that even thinks of dating me will think something must be wrong with her and her mom… I just wanted a normal little family. I just wasn’t meant to be happy I guess. My parents weren’t and now I’m in the same situation and I can’t stay or leave….this is the worst torture. I don’t want to be the one in the family that’s looked at as problematic