Porn or no porn

I’ve know my husband watched porn, but I don’t think this much and really it isn’t bothered me much until recently. He turns me down anytime I want sex. I know sex isn’t everything in a marriage but I do think it plays a big part in the relationship with your spouse. When we have sec anymore, there’s nothing in it for me hardly. He does it for 2 mins, finishes and it’s over. No foreplay, not climax for me. Nothing. Our sex life used to be so good. He used to make sure I finished, he’d go down on me, he’d try to last longer. Now it’s like he doesn’t care and o feel like it’s because of me. I had a baby 2 years ago and I’m not as skinny as I was. I never have time to look good anymore. I typed out some things on my mind I wanted to tell him. Should I just let it go or should I talk to him about it. I wish he would want to watch porn with me instead m, I think that would be hot. Here’s what’s on my mind for now :

I wasn’t going to say anything because at first it wasn’t a big deal to me and I truly didn’t care, but the last few days it’s been bothering me. When you wanted me to login to your Xbox account and turn off recurring billing, it added your gmail account on my google, it wasn’t something I did on purpose. I seen everything. Every time you searched porn. When you were so curious to see that woah Vicky girl naked. Really it didn’t bother me, until you turned me down just about every time I wanted to do something and I was like “well he probably watched porn today, that’s why he doesn’t want to do anything” so I’d go look, and yeah I was always right. You probably think it’s no big deal, but it makes me feel so disgusting. I feel like I’m not attractive enough for you and that I don’t turn you on like the girls do that you watch. I feel like you’d rather just watch them because I don’t do enough for you. I just don’t understand why you’d want to do that when most of the time you’ve watched it I’d be in the next room. Almost every time I ask you there’s always so excuse you make, you’re tired, you’re dirty, or you just go to sleep. It makes me feel like it’s something that I did that makes you not want to do anything with me. I’m Not mad at you, just sad. I feel like when we do stuff most of the time you just want it over with quick, I wish it was different and how it used to be. You use to do more stuff to me and take your time and I liked feeling connected to you in that way. If we watched porn together, I think that would be hot lol. I deleted your info off of my account, it’s up to you if you want to continue watching porn. Either way you know how I feel now and I needed to tell you cause it’s been bother me lately.