My fiance let's me use his computer and I've never felt the need to snoop because we have no secrets. Or.. well I thought we didn't. I had to go to his saved passwords to get one for one of his gaming launchers I was reinstalling for a game I'd like to play and he's got a LOT of passwords saved so I had to scroll for quite some time. I wouldn't have gone through it but the autofill for the game launcher didn't do its job so I had to manually find it and put it in. I could have asked him for the password but he's at work and texting it is.. well. Not secure.

And I found out he's got an onlyfans account. I won't look any further into it because if I do I'm just gonna hurt my feelings even more. I don't know how to bring it up to him... I don't care if he's into porn, but paying for other peoples nudes is.. not okay.

I know we're going to have to discuss this because it's going to eat at me and tear me apart if we don't. Is he buying other women's nudes? Is he selling his? I want to say I trust him but.. he knows this is something I'm not okay with... And I thought he was on the same page as me regarding it.

I don't know what to think. I feel numb..

EDIT:

Thank you both for your response. Especially Hope, it was hard not to overthink it, but I distracted myself until he came home from work last night. You were right though, it wasn't what I thought it was.

He knew something was bothering me right away, but he didn't want to force me to talk about it until I was ready. He just kept gently rubbing my shoulder and back to let me know he was here for me when I was ready to talk. As he went on his computer I told him that I found something that I probably shouldn't have, and I told him it made me very uncomfortable. He was genuinely confused so I told him the autofill for his game launcher didn't work so I had to manually find it in his saved passwords and I found onlyfans in the list while scrolling. He was confused, but he wasn't angry. He opened up his internet browser but it became apparent he didn't know where to go to find his saved passwords so I showed him. We scrolled through the list together and there were some more things there that he had no idea what they were as he didn't put them there. I showed him the onlyfans, it had no email or username saved, just a password. But below the list of saved logins was a list of never saved as well, and the onlyfans was there too, as well as neopets and a couple of other websites he doesn't use. He even tried to log in with his email addresses on the onlyfans website with the password and no account popped up.

It was the neopets on the list that kind of made us realize what happened though. He never had a neopets account, but his ex did. His ex had access to his computer while they dated, and she knew his password and emails. To respect his privacy I won't go into too many details but she was constantly accusing him of cheating, and would hit him when she couldn't find evidence of it (because he wasn't). This was one of those instances, she had sat down at his computer and tried to log into an account that didn't exist to "prove" he was unfaithful and obviously it didn't work. He doesn't clear his fuckin cookies or cache so her computer usage has just been sitting there.

I know he wasn't lying or deflecting blame, or trying to distract me. He is a very genuine man, and it's very obvious to me when he lies. Its also pretty consistent of what I know about her. He feels equally conflicted about it as well, because on one hand he's distressed that every time he feels like he's moved on and she has no grasp on his life any more she or something she's done pops up and reopens old wounds, and he's scared he'll never be able to get rid of her for good. On the other hand he is angry, because he didn't deserve the shit she put him through, and hes mad he trusted her when she never could do the same and she abused his trust by sneaking behind his back to try and find problems where there were none, and creating problems when she couldn't find one.

We'll also be changing his passwords in case this is actually recent, and just because neither of us are comfortable knowing she knows his passwords. And I'm going to show that man how to clear his cache and cookies.

I'm happy to know he wasn't going behind my back and breaking my trust, but I am hurting for my fiance and the trauma he carries because of her. I'm going to help him through it the best I can, as I have with everything else that she's done to him.

He apologized that I sat there alone for hours with what I had discovered and how hurt and scared I was. He told me that he understands how it looked and didn't blame me for any doubts or concerns I had and honestly he's surprised I didn't just confront him when I found it. He promised me that he's more than happy with me, he is never going to replace me, and he isn't going to do anything stupid to jeopardize our future. I'm very lucky to have him, I know some women aren't as lucky to have a genuine and honest partner like I have.