Am I wrong?/rant

So I’m a full-time college student (trying to get a good career for my family) and a stay at home mom of 4 kids under the age of 5.

Every morning (weekdays) I get up at 6:30am, get my 4 year old ready for school, wait in the carline from hell for an hour, come back home and try to do as much studying/school work as I can until the others wake up, make breakfast, get everyone dressed and try to occupy them long enough to do more assignments for the rest of the day (minus cooking, cleaning, and breastfeeding) and lately the kids and I have been SICK. sick sick. Along with staying up late to catch up on school work.

My (now ex)fiancé works, he does bread deliveries. Some days its from 3am-9am, 4am-8am, and on Sunday(today) it’s just a trip to Walmart at 6am for an hour to make sure the bread shelves are still stocked.

Well this weekend was the city fair. My 4 year old and 3 year old really wanted to go (would’ve been their first time) as we’ve been feeling a little better. So i told them I’d take them Saturday. Well Saturday comes and my fiancé didn’t say anything but apparently he had been throwing up and having diarrhea the entire week. My 2 year old starts getting diarrhea Saturday morning, then I started feeling nauseous and started having diarrhea as well. So I told the girls we could go today if we were feeling better. My fiancé and I planned to go at 11:30 when they open so there wouldn’t be many people. I told him he should go to sleep early since he had his walmart thing at 6am and then the fair a few hours later. Well he chose to stay up with me (I was completing my school work that was due today so I wouldn’t have to worry about it when the fair came). The only reason why he stayed up was because he wanted sex. He knew I was doing school work, also my stomach still felt like shit, literally. He got mad when I decided to do an exam (literally only 20 questions) that was due on the 25th just to get it out of the way and he was getting impatient and stormed out of the living room. Then he came back into the room when I was just about done and was like “why didn’t you tell me you were taking a test, Im staying up waiting for you!” It was literally 12am at this point. So as soon as I was done he brought me to the room and I let him do his thing to shut him up even though I felt crappy (lol). Unfortunately for him he didn’t get to finish because the baby woke up, (3am at this point) and I had to feed her. He said “dont fall asleep” , well my ass fell asleep. He stayed up after that because he would oversleep if he went to sleep. When he came back from walmart he was upset with me because I fell asleep and he told me that (sex) was more important than my schoolwork. I tried telling him it wasn’t because Im going off of a grant, if my grades drop below a C then I lose the amount its paying for per class that I fail so Ive been working hard. So I told him if he had the extra $830 to spare per class then sure(we are broke lol thats why I went back to school).

Thanks to him doing his “thing” after my test, I didn’t get to finish my other assignments because I fell asleep. So I asked him to watch the kids long enough for me to do my schoolwork so we could go to the fair like we promised the kids, well he ended up falling asleep because he stayed up all night. Which was his fault. I told him to go to sleep early. So I tried letting him sleep while I handled the kids and tried doing schoolwork. At this point it’s 11am, he has gotten about 4 hours of sleep and I was doing an assignment that was hard for me and I really needed him to take over. So I tried waking him up 6 times. Making loud noises and shaking him, didn’t work. So I had a small plastic basket in my hand and tapped it on the coffee table and said “wake the hell up I need help” loudly and this seemed to have pissed him off and asked me what my problem was then said he was leaving and left the house. I texted him saying he wasn’t being much help and that I was sorry for waking him but it was mainly his fault that he stayed up all night after I told him to go to sleep. He said that since I think his help is so worthless that he’ll show me what worthless help looks like and He told me I’m a single mother now and I can do it on my own. And my poor kiddos didn’t get to go to the fair 😐

So did I fuck up somewhere??