I feel so defeated..

✨Lex✨ • ✨TTC baby #1✨

I’m not trying to sound like a crybaby but ladies, I feel so defeated. I’m not one to post my emotions or feelings bc I try dealing with them on my own, but I really could use some encouragement. My fiancé and I stopped trying for a baby a couple months ago bc of how stressful and unsuccessful each cycle was. I recently just discovered my last gyn prescribed me wrong medication for trying/irregular cycles, I was furious. I switched to a different gyn hoping this doctor will help me.

So this cycle I wasn’t planning to try bc I gave up after trying for two years with no help from doctors, but since I tried before I know when my body’s ovulating. I get sore boobs, mild cramps and ofc clear/stretchy cm. That happened this cycle COMPLETELY unexpectedly. Mind you, I haven’t had a period in three months with negative tests so I wasn’t expecting any type of fertility (tho I do know that you can ovulate without a period). I ask my fiancé if he was willing to try this cycle and he said yes so we ofc baby dance for a couple days. Two weeks go by and still… absolutely nothing. Literally and I mean literally, everyone around me is either pregnant or had their baby and here I am with no kids, wishing I had JUST ONE baby. I literally don’t care if all I have is one baby, I just want a family of my own. I’ve tried multiple prenatal vitamins, I tracked my cycles, got a bunch of different opk/pregnancy tests, I stopped smoking and drinking, I worked on eating more and healthier foods, I drank sooo much water a day, managed stress, etc. after two years of doing all of that still no luck but a chemical miscarriage. I literally feel I’m out of options and I don’t know what else to do. Please, ANY advice or tips would be much appreciated. I’m so close to deciding to not have kids at all.