Hi guys! I’ll apologize now as this is going to be long…..

Backstory: my husband and I got together when we were 16. We fell hard and fast… we got engaged 2 years later at his prom. We moved in and have been together for 8.5 years. We just got married in June after being engaged for 6 years.

The reason we had a 6 year engagement is because he cheated. We worked on it and our relationship really was strong. We had very open and honest communication and we got past it.

Fast forward to last June when I started planning our wedding, his behaviours started to change but I was so caught up with wedding planning I didn’t notice. He stopped helping around the house and I just picked up not really saying anything. The month before we get married we sat down and had one of our honest conversations. I brought up my concerns and problems about how he was treating me and what I wanted from him. Nothing crazy just something simple like picking up dinner, doing the dishes, cooking, folding the laundry… and it all falls on me.

The other problem I have is, right after the wedding, we came home and he had lined up a new job but quit his first one before the new one started. The entire process was delayed and he ended up being off for 15 weeks. I worked 60 hour weeks(im a nurse) to make up for him not working so that we could afford bills and groceries. He was offered several times by friend a temporary job at a coffee shop to help us while he waited for his new job to start but he always said no despite him seeing me and me telling him how much I was struggling. I’d also like to add that during this time he did NOTHING! He would sit at home and do absolutely nothing. I would get home and he’d ask when I would start dinner or if I had done any laundry yet.. as if I wasn’t working all day

Through all of this, I also had to put down my best friend and beloved dog before he even got the chance to see his second birthday… I’m still torn and riddle with guilt as he was not physically sick but mentally sick and I had to decided on behavioural euthanasia or surrender him to a kill shelter. My husband does not get my pain… he doesn’t think I should be grieving this dog, and wants to pack up all his shit and make it as if he never existed. But I’m not ready…

I never really noticed how under valued I’ve been in my relationship until recently when I ask for small things and just get scoffs and eye rolls in return. But looking back it’s been like this for too long and I’m tired of being treated like this… I’ve tried bringing it up to him but all I get in return is “oh I worked all day” “I’m tired” “why can’t you do it” as if I haven’t worked all day as well….

Lately, he’s also started talking about how he wants me to be a SAHM(no babies yet) but like I love my job and don’t want that!! I plan to go back to work after. But he doesn’t like that idea.

So I’m just struggling with what I should do…., I have no effort or energy left…

Oh and to top it all off, daily I get asked if I could just give him some pussy…

If you’ve made it this far, thank you! I don’t know if I want advice or if I just wanted to vent but I’m just feeling alone