Where do I start ...

I need a break. Don't get me wrong I love my family but I've reached a point where I just want to be alone. I have an 11 year old daughter, an 8 year old son, a soon to be 10 months old son and I am due on the 4th of December to another little boy. My hubby and I have been together for 9 years. I'm always busy as a mother and wife. I'm never alone at all times I have something to do. Which ok yes I signed up for it all but I need a break from it all. I just want a little time for myself. Seems like the only time I have for myself is when I shower.

Next thing is we are struggling. We moved from states and living with family at the moment but have to move by the 1st of November which is this up coming week. His family members aren't renewing the lease hence why we need to move. I mean regardless we have to move into our own place. No one will rent to us just because my hubby doesn't have a year working at his job. And since I'm not working they also require a credit check and my hubby doesn't have good credit. So it's been so tough this month trying to rush to find some one who will rent to us. Either his other uncle will rent a small room to all of us or move back to our home state. Which I'm grateful if his uncle let's us stay but they smoke inside their home and I feel that will trigger my son's asthma. Also it's the cheapest of the 2 to stay. If we leave it'll be like 2000 to go back.

Now my 10 month old is growing fast And my hubby's job isn't giving him enough hours to work so he is barely making enough to get by. Which I have to use what we have to cloth him even if it's just a little snug on him.

I want to cry so bad because this situation we are in is the worst. We've never been through this. I have no insurance here for when I give birth. My kids have no insurance to take them to their check Ups. Which would only be for my 10 month old my other 2 are up to date.

I'm stressed