I am so tired of fighting him about doing things. I am 8 months pregnant with chronic back pain. I commute 2 hours to work to a stressful job just so I can afford the bare minimum and it is still not remotely enough money to afford living in CA. I’m constantly stressed about finances and preparing for the baby. We don’t have a crib yet or anything for the nursery. I threw my own baby shower and footed the entire event. Our house is in a constant state of disarray unless I clean and if he cleans a tiny bit he pitches a major attitude like I do nothing. I am in so much pain most of the time that it is really hard to do much but I try. He does the bare minimum for EVERYTHING and if I point it out he denies it and acts like I am just an asshole. I feel like I’m going crazy. It’s like when a kid denies doing something

that you literally just watched them do. He also doesn’t take any initiative to do anything at home or work or anything!! If I didn’t beg him to please pull the trash bins out we simply just wouldn’t have our trash taken away. I’m losing my fucking mind. I have felt completely and utterly alone from the very beginning of this pregnancy. We had been trying to get pregnant and when we finally did and I told him he was not happy at all. He actually made me cry because he immediately just launched into asking how we were going to be able to afford a baby. The entire pregnancy has been so lonely. I finally stopped taking his hand to feel the baby kick because he made it obvious that he does not really have a genuine interest in feeling the baby. He will play video games with headphones on for HOURS every single day when he gets home from work. I could scream at the top of my lungs that I was being murdered and he would not hear me. Anytime I try to tell him how I am feeling he just tells me how exhausted he is from work and that I’m just basically being insensitive. We have been together for 11 years. I have worked full time while going to school for 8 of those years. I graduated and got my bachelors degree and immediately got pregnant. I come from a very dysfunctional family and I have no support. He comes from a very supportive and loving family. I can’t help but feel like all of this is my own doing. I knew he was scared to have a kid and I convinced him to try anyway. I am 36 years old and just wanted to have our baby before I got too old to have one. I also suffered a devastating missed miscarriage at the beginning of last year that really amped up my desire to get pregnant again. I don’t know what to do. Does anyone else relate to this?

I am utterly miserable.