Hi all. This is my first time posting on the community page. I’m going through a difficult time with my first boyfriend. We’ve been dating for almost 4 years and talked about marriage and buying a home (already saving).

A few days ago I went through his phone while he was asleep because my gut felt like something was off after he quickly put away his phone.

It turns out in January and most recently last week he asked for a girl’s nudes on Reddit. I’m thinking it’s one of those OF women accounts. I was floored because I never thought he could do something like that. Right away when I found out I woke him up and confronted him. He admitted to it and wanted to leave because he felt so ashamed. He apologized profusely and deleted his account and that it meant nothing. I made the choice to move past this and told him he has deeply hurt me.

I love him so much and trying now to move on but it’s so HARD. Like I feel that I can’t see him in the same way. Just thinking about it makes me want to cry. He broke my trust and I told him he needs to earn it back.

What do I do? I seriously saw this person as someone that I’m going to settle down with in the near future. I feel that I can’t talk to anyone about this.

Do I break up with him? Or do I give it time for our relationship to heal? Thank you for reading.