I’m currently 28 weeks, 29 on Friday. Knowing I have a good 8-10 weeks left and time is just flying is scaring me. I have nothing besides a couple clothes for baby, I’m not ready at all, I feel so alone now and throughout this whole thing. I feel like PPD is gonna hit me hard this time around. I live with just my daughter (6) and she’s gonna be the only one here with me after I bring baby home. I won’t have help and I’m scared of not wanting my baby. I’m kind of starting to feel that way now and I don’t want to. I want to be happy and in good feelings mentally for both my kids. I’ve been crying myself to sleep almost every night, every day I’m alone while my daughter is at school I’m just sad and sleep. She’s my only distraction sometimes.

I’m definitely gonna have to talk to my doctor when I see her just to see what I can do or how I can help myself with this.

Yeah I have family but they have their own lives and own families to worry about, the dad is around when he wants to be mainly for our daughter but he’s just an alcoholic and no help at all and I don’t really feel comfortable being around him. His family isn’t people I would go to about my problems. At this point I’m just venting but I just want to feel a little better. Words of encouragement are needed and appreciated 😣