Tomorrow I will be 4+6 weeks and that is when I lost my last pregnancy, I’m absolutely dreading it. My anxiety is through the roof and I can’t keep calm at all.

I’ve been saying to myself to just get to 5 weeks and then see what happens.

In the UK we don’t have midwife appointments until 8-10 weeks and then the first scan is 10-12 weeks. I just want a scan as soon as possible!

We were planning on having a private scan done at 6 weeks but we’ve had a death in the family and having spent all our savings on the funeral. We probably won’t have enough money to buy the Christmas presents for our 2 year old that she wants.

Feels like everything is going wrong right now and I don’t know what to do.

I don’t even know why I’m posting all of this…I think I just need to vent and hoping not to feel so alone