I'm pregnant with our 3rd baby who was a surprise after our BC failed, and I cannot find a way to be happy about it. I'm almost halfway through and it's been a difficult pregnancy. Medically and emotionally. There is a significant age gap between my youngest and this baby, My career had taken off and I was moving up quickly, the world is in a horrible place, people are horrible to each other as a norm, and to top it off Its been 15 weeks since I have had sex because I have a subchorionic hemorrhage and was told no sex. So I'm pent up, taking on more responsibility at work, having to deal with all the medical stuff that comes with a high risk pregnancy, and trying to accept the reality of bringing another baby into this world. I just need to get it off my chest. I know I will love this baby as much as my other two kiddos. I just know I'm not the only momma not experiencing the joys of pregnancy.