I am going to sound horrible, and I understand I got myself in this situation and I am trying to stay strong, but my ex is not a good father figure. He put on a show, but then the mask started falling off. He tried to have sex with me a few times while my autistic son was laying next to me asleep. I shut him down each time and he would get mad. He gave my son the silent treatment because he was mad at me (my son is 4 and I’m due with my second next month.)

He also has not bought anything for the baby. I’ve gotten everything. He’s over $3,000 behind on mortgage. I just found that out. I can’t live where my kids are on the verge of homelessness. He sleeps 12+ hours a day. Noticed he took half a pack of Sudafed within a day. He is manipulative. I really don’t want him near this baby. I raised my son by myself, and I’ve had no trouble. And he understands he is loved and understands the reasoning for not having a dad. He’s a super sweet kid and incredibly happy. I really don’t want any trouble, and it would be easier on all of us if my ex treated this as a sperm donor situation, I won’t ask for child support and I won’t ever speak his name again unless it’s a life/death situation. And we had that discussion before we even agreed to having sex, but I feel out of spite, even though he definitely does not like kids, he will try for custody. My parents were divorced and I still deal with ptsd from the whole situation. My dad got custody of me, manipulated me into moving in with money, and looking back, it was all just to hurt my mom. Because I rarely hear from him anymore. And talk to my mom every day. And she helps me with just about anything. I don’t want my child to go through what I did and then my other child start feeling left out because he sees his brother with a guy that used to act like his dad until the guy got mad at me. I wish I could go back in time I would not have gotten myself into this situation.

I can’t move out until my apartment is done and I’m scared to say anything because he has guns and bottles things up and I keep telling my mom but she isn’t letting me move in because she just doesn’t have room. I could move in with my dad possibly, but he lives an hour away. And the apartment I am moving in is around here. The cheapest movers in my area cost $300 an hour. My mom says he is probably trying to make me stressed so I will go into labor early. 😭