I started having full blown panic attacks completely out of the blue about 6-7 weeks ago.

The second time it happened I thought I had a heart problem

I couldn’t breathe, my hands and feet went numb/blue and locked up on me so I couldn’t use my hands or feet I thought I was dying it was horrible 😰

Since then and learning it was likely a panic attack I’ve had about 5-6 more that have been full blown and another 5-10 that I think might have become more if I hadn’t controlled my breathing in time.

I’ve phoned my drs who have put me in touch with a mental health programme but my first scheduled call with them isn’t until late November.

What can I do in the meantime to help myself? 😥

I’m so tired of being caught out of the blue with them and it’s really starting to affect me and my ability to be a good mom to my feb baby and toddler, I feel a bit detached, like I’m just trying to make it through each day.

I have a good supportive partner he comes in from long days at work and gets stuck straight in playing with them, helping with bath and bed time etc so it’s not like I don’t have support - I don’t know why this is happening 😪

Some of it is manifesting in feeling compulsive about keeping the house clean, I feel so on edge I can’t sit down i constantly need to be either down on the floor playing with my children otherwise I’m hunting for things to sort/tidy/clean. I recognise it’s becoming a problem so I purposely try to have days where whatever happens happens and the mess will get done at some point but it makes me physically itch like my arms itch and I can’t just sit down and relax 😕 I take the kids to groups, try to get outside etc too.

My feb baby sleeps okay (not all night but 1-2 wakes and goes back to sleep which I feel is pretty good) so I get a small amount of down time in the evenings so it’s not like I don’t have ANY time to myself.

I feel like I’m drowning but I don’t know why. Nothings especially difficult or stressful so I feel like I’m stressed-anxious for no good reason.

What can I do? 🙁