So, i know it is completely normal to find others attractive while in a relationship, I know everyone looks. I know my man finds other girls attractive just like I find other guys attractive. On occasion he will look at a girl who has a nice 🍑 or somthing and I can’t help but feel like I want to cry haha, it hurts. He’s not disrespectful about it he doesn’t stare or say things that are disrespectful to me but when I see him check a girl out or if I ask him about it he’s honest(which I’m thankful for) but I can’t help but feel a little hurt.

I know I probably sound effing crazy. I’m not trying to, I can admit that I am VERY insecure he knows this and he does eveything he can to help me and be there for me, It is somthing I am really trying to work on.

I want to be able to joke around with him about it like “lemme go get her # for you” and not get mad or let it get to me like it does.

For example, the other day i asked what he thought of Sydney Sweeney and he said she was hot. I literally felt sick to my stomach bc she’s perfect.. I know I will never look like that. He says that he doesn’t want me to look like that and that he thinks I’m perfect he just finds her “hot” his words were “I find her hot but who cares just like you think Harry styles is hot, it doesn’t matter your what I want” I know he’s right, I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

I know I sound pathetic.. has any of you struggled with this? How did you get better with it?

I have been with my man for almost 9 years now. We just got engaged last year and are getting married next fall. I don’t want to keep doing this to myself, I want to keep my relationship happy and healthy he shouldn’t have to deal with this shit.