TW: brief mention of a past of suicidal thoughts

I left my husband a month ago when I found out he was keeping HUGE secrets from me.

In that time I've taken time to rest, done A LOT of training with my puppy, grown closer to family, got a job, have a tattoo scheduled, plan on going to some events just for fun, and will be contacting a lawyer soon about how to best go about this divorce.

I buy myself flowers every other week and treat myself with kindness. I went to the beach this weekend and now realized I have to do it every weekend (im on the coast) because my dog loves it and its just so calming. I dont have to pick up after a man any more just dropping things behind him and leaving piles everywhere for me to clean up. I live on a family property and we all take turns with cooking and dishes.

My life is not perfect but I'm pretty happy with it and have not thought about ending my life in an entire month when it was a daily thought before I left. I didn't think I was a strong person, but I'm starting to feel like.... just maybe I am.

Im posting mostly because I dont really have friends right now. We've all drifted apart recently when we physically all moved to different cities.

I hope to find love someday again, but I'm not in a rush to do so.