We made it to 6.5 months, but today is my last day breastfeeding and I'm more upset about it than I thought I would be.

I went into this wanting to breastfeed, but also totally ok with formula if it didn't work out. Things were great until 3 months, when baby girl was losing weight, so we started supplementing with formula. Once we started supplementing she was back on track, my supply was fine, and because we were only supplementing 1-2oz we weren't affected by the formula shortage. At her 4 month appointment we discussed cutting back her formula if she was still doing well at 5 months.

Just days after that I had a hernia repair surgery for an umbilical hernia I developed during my pregnancy. Because of the surgery and the pain meds I was on she was bottle fed for about 48hrs, which was fine, we had enough frozen milk to cover that time-frame and she'd taken bottles before without issue. The problems started when I tried to resume breastfeeding after surgery. She was having trouble latching, and as a result my supply started to drop. I worked with a lactation consultant, and we managed to get her back to latching regularly, but my supply had dropped to the point where I only got 1oz every 2-3hr and nothing we tried worked to increase it. After a month they said to just keep doing what I was doing and we were as good as it was going to get...which was sad news, but we just kept trying.

At this point I was formula feeding and supplementing breastmilk, except for first thing in the morning where she would have a full breastfeeding session and didn't need formula. Just shy of 6 months I stopped breastfeeding during the day altogether because my supply continued to drop and I slowly stopped pumping as well, but we held on to that first morning feed. I knew eventually my supply would drop and I'd have to switch over completely to formula.

This morning for the 3rd time in 4 days I've had to give her a bottle after our morning session so I know we've reached that point. I knew it was coming, but it makes me more sad than I expected to be done with this bonding time together. While I'll still enjoy my morning feeding snuggles with her, bottle feeding snuggles just aren't the same and I'm going to miss breastfeeding.

Not looking for advice or anything, just wanted to get this out, so if you read to the end thanks for listening and good luck with your feeding, however you choose to feed your LO!