My husband works so hard for me and our almost 4 month old son. He works long hours and sometimes weekends. Thankfully he works from home, but his job is a stressful cooperate job.

I’m out of work right now, mainly taking care of our kid overnight and during the time that he works. I don’t complain, because I nap when the baby naps, but my hubby wakes up early and feels so tired during the day. He feels bad for me cuz I wake up overnight, but again… I’m able to nap during the day.

Anyways, we’ve been in different wake and sleep schedules because of this, I’m not happy with my postpartum body and my eczema is flaring up all over my body (legs, arms, neck, back, hands… everywhere). I haven’t been keeping up on my waxes, working out, and hair styling, so I haven’t been feeling very sexy or appealing.

I don’t whine and vent too much, but I can tell that my husband notices that I’m not feeling myself without me saying it. He notices my skin issues and my heavy eyes.

Yesterday, He suggested that he pays for a massage. I’m responded, I think you need a massage and spa day more than me. Then he replied, “ I need sex…. But yeah a massage would be nice too..”

I was so caught off guard and said, “dang… how long has it been ?” I wasn’t expecting him to answer. But I felt so embarrassed that I forgot to tend to his needs. It’s true that I haven’t been in the mood, but it doesn’t mean that he isn’t. He still rubs and touches up on me when he passes me… I just don’t get turned on because I feel ugh and there is something always on with baby.

I thought about discussing and expressing myself with an apology. But I feel like that will make him feel like he wouldn’t be honest with my about him wanting sex in the future. Instead, I’m gonna take action.

Anyways, but I’m motivated to get myself right lol. I couldn’t even look at him today. Scheduling a full body wax tomorrow!!

I’m a first time mom and I need to learn how to balance everything. At the end of the day, I’m his wife and he’s my husband.

-Vent over-