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Idk I guess I kinda just want to vent without physically saying it and talking to someone with them judging me or trying to tell me to think of it differently.

Ssoo I had been like 4 to 5 days late for my period and my usual period symptoms were different this time. So I tried to not think of maybe taking a test and disappointing myself. But today I started cramping more and my back started to hurt more and then I realized I started my period. And the way it feels reminded me of my first miscarriage back in June, so I feel super emotional. I have a handsome lil guy that's 2 and a bonus handsome lil guy that's 2 as well both will be 4 in 2023. And ever since Iv just been having baby fever and each month I get my period is just like a big slap in the face. I know things work however the higher power wants things to go but I just wanna be able to have another blessing and hopefully have my baby girl. And I'm just ready to see 2 pink/blue lines and make it to the day im holding my blessing. I will stay positive and just not fouces on it, but just kinda bummed. Feel a lil better putting it out there.