Smoking was a deal breaker from day one. A year into the relationship we moved in together and I found out he was smoking. He begged me to give him some time as he was planning quit before I find out. Me being stupid I said yes, you have a year. Year Two he is still smoking. I'm ready to leave our pastor counseled us to give him more time. Year three he's quit but I keep catching him "slip" up. Told him to quit because we've been trying for a baby and nada and we need help.

On my way back from the appoint I stopped at his job to see him smoking. Hand him divorce papers and move into the guest room and started planning a mommy makeover and single life. He apologizes, gets Chantix and said he's quit for sure and he wants to work on us.

Six months later he asks us to start trying again. I told him in an heart to heart that I'm not ready because I want to make sure we don't break up and I don't really trust that he's not going to go back. I drug test him for the rest of the year and he's passing and telling me all I wanna hear. At the end of the yr we did <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">ivf</a> and it failed.

We do multiple cycles until I get pregnant. By the start of my second trimester, he's back to smoking. At this point my pregnacy is horrible and I do not want to deal with him. At the end if it he was so rude and mean I decided I'm gone. He cried and beg me to stay and for our kid. So I said okay.

Come back from the hospital in January and talk about him quitting and him getting his attitude together so we can be a family. We'll here we are its November amd he still hasn't changed. I got a roommate and I'm moving on.

Now I'm thinking abt how my kid isn't going to have a two parent household and the effed up shit he is going to go thru because his dad couldn't keep his promise. Not to mention now I'm single mom. Just because he was selfish to not walk away or quit. Now both our lives are messed tf up!