My boyfriend and I have been together for a while. (Years) and I don’t know I guess I was blinded and I met him when I was 18 he was already a lot older at 26 now he’s 30 and I’m 22 but

I don’t go out or smoke, drink etc. he never invites me out with his friends and I’ve always asked well the guys are bringing there girlfriends why can’t I go? He would tell me how he didn’t wanna bring me in the environment that he went out into he’d rather take me some place nice just the two of us etc. well that never happened. When it’s a birthday or holiday his friends invite him over, last Christmas my boyfriend invited me to his friends moms house where there was family and about 30 minutes in my boyfriend said he wanted to go to the movies with his friends because they bought him a ticket and the guys girls we’re going with them. My boyfriend new I felt upset about that because it was Christmas and I was left alone at his friends moms house while he went out for a movie and it broke my heart. For my 22 birthday my boyfriend just yelled at me and told me how birthdays are worthless and I left for the day cause he slept all day and when I came home he went to chilled with his friend all night while telling his mom he waited to celebrate with me.

( his mom is a Jehovah witness and he’s not but he makes excuses about it)

Thanksgiving he tells me well what’s so good about thanksgiving ? Huh thats a horrible day to celebrate than goes and eats a meal with his friends.

Anyways he tells me that him going out is his way away. He’s been going out every single day for as long as I can remember, when I mention it he gets pissed off and starts an argument and tells me that’s all I think about. What els am I supposed to think about when all I want is his attention and he ignores me ? I’ve told him that I think I’m gonna end the relationship and he tells me “when ya leaving ? When you gonna just move on” than later on tells me come here baby come lay with me when he finally decides to come back to the house at 6 am and I ignore him and tell him if he couldn’t be with me all night what makes him think I wanna be with him at 6 am when he’s been out all night. He would get mad and take all the covers leave me freezing and tell me to go find my own blanket some place els and than ask me why I’m acting the way I am and mimick me telling me that I think to much etc.

example. I picked him up from work yesterday, he got off at 6pm we came home I asked if he wanted to go on a ride with me he said no he was tired, went and layed on the couch. I drove around for 20 minutes and came back when I walked in the house he asked me for my keys and said he would be right back. He left early in the night. Around 10 pm I call him and he said he’s at his friends house gonna be leaving soon. It’s now 9:10 AM the next morning and he is still not home “claims he’s doing Uber” yet whenever he does “Uber he makes maybe 60 bucks in a whole 8 hours.

I think I just need to leave the relationship but I can’t get myself to