Is anyone else repulsed by there boyfriend/husband?

I’m 30 weeks pregnant and I cannot think of any other word other than repulsed by my boyfriend 😂

I don’t mean looks wise , I mean everything else.

Everything he does irritates me!!!!!!!

We had split up for a few weeks before finding out I was pregnant so I don’t know if maybe I’d already mentally checked out of the relationship and then felt like I should give it another once finding out we were expecting another baby together.

But my whole pregnancy has been miserable with this bloke! I’ve had no peace!

I just feel like I need to get it all off my chest before I tell him to get his shit and get out of my house!

So we went on a “family trip” when I was nine weeks pregnant, said he would pay me for his half….still to this day not had a penny.

Got mardy with me when I had the blood tests at my 12 scan.

Found out my old Dopler which I had brought when I was pregnant with my daughter but never used because I could never find her heartbeat , me and my daughter sat in the living trying to find his heartbeat which we eventually found so my daughter ran in to tell her dad to come into the living room to hear the heartbeat , sat waiting , he never came because he was “busy” on the phone and then argued with me that we had heard it at the scan…a lie because in the uk , the hospital scans don’t play the heartbeat so that pissed me off.

Then my mum had booked us a sneak peak gender scan at 16 weeks , he woke up that morning and decided to argue with me about something irrelevant and try and make the day about him , he pissed me off that much I told him to not bother coming because he would ruin the vibe and make everyone feel uncomfortable.

Then…. We split up for a week around 20 weeks when we had a massive argument regarding money and food shop , he called me everything from a pig to a goat , made me cry hysterically in the street because he grabbed my daughter off me saying I wasn’t fit to look after her and told me to get rid of the baby.

Everything cooled down slightly for a couple of weeks until recently the same money argument came up. I personally do not agree with discussing finances in front of children , I don’t think they should be involved in adult conversations especially about money.

So I had told him I wasn’t in the mood to discuss money as I had a headache and hadn’t slept well the night before and I had a lot of housework that needed doing so on so forth.

Once again , even though I tried to stay calm and focus on my tasks I didn’t really want to do but knew I had to as he definitely wasn’t going to do them , the argument resulted in me in tears and being comforted by our 4 year old while he continued to swear at me and shout.

He’s got his own place but lives at mine and I’ve noticed he’s trying to extend his grip and his ways more so.

Like I don’t give a fuck il admit it I had Christmas music playing in my bedroom while I was doing some odd jobs and he comes in asking what the need was to have Xmas songs on so I then replied to him , what his need was to sit with the news on all day everyday ( can’t stand the news I find it depressed).

It’s like I’m being questioned about everything I do in my own house!

I just find him rude and self centred!

He will walk round the house on the phone shouting and chatting away doesn’t matter if I’m on the phone , reading a book with our daughter or snuggled up watching a film or getting the little girl ready for bed , it’s like he has to be the centre of everything and heaven forbid i tell him to be quiet or go in another room 🙄

But out of all of that!!!!!

The two things that REALLLLY wind me up are the fact he tries to make out I couldn’t keep my house on my own and if it wasn’t for him I wouldn’t be able to afford it 🙄

Seriously?!?!?! I’ve lived her 5 years almost , he’s never had to pay my rent and never gives me money towards bills

He thinks because he does a little shop that equals up to how much I spend on keeping the house going , bills and not to mention all my daughters activities…this brings me on to the next thing…. Him making out it’s HIM that does everything.

I’m the one that gets my daughter ready for school , makes her breakfast, irons her uniform , gets her bag ready all of that but yet he makes out he takes and picks her up from school and does everything in the mornings , he doesn’t even drive!

And it’s the same as taking her to her activities I pay for them and take her , wait for her , pick her up …. He does nothing but makes out he’s this “best dad ever” but he’s just tagging on with me , if our daughter was in his care 100% trust me should wouldn’t have a fraction of things and activities that she does because of me! But he likes to think it’s all him and it really isn’t.

I don’t even like him doing the school run with me because he likes to use that time to start arguing with me!

When I take my daughter to school we have a right laugh in the car , we blast our music , singing and dancing , getting the vibe set for the day!!! But same as I said he’s just trying to extend his grip so he will turn the music down or off uuuuuggghhh he’s just such a negative experience!

He’s never made any big purchases for our daughter, never paid anything towards any of her stuff and set up when I was pregnant, no birthday presents, no Christmas presents , no fuck all.

He smokes weed , I don’t and that’s fine like whatever floats your boat but he’s got this crazy idea that just because people know he smokes then he shouldn’t have to hide it , meaning he will leave his smelly bag in my living room stinking out the place , I’ve told him to but it away in the under the stairs cupboard and he looks at me like I’ve come into his house and took a shit on the floor!

Then I’ve told him to stop rolling on my dining room table for very very obvious reasons …. Clearly I must not be speaking English because that request hasn’t registered in his pea brain

He smells out my car by insisting on wearing this hideous coat that just locks in smells and obviously he can’t go anywhere without his backpack!!! Sooooo… doubly smelly!

I just look at him and just feel nothing other than annoyance.

When he’s speaks I just feel like putting my hand over his mouth and telling him to just shut the fuck up!

I just actually despise him , I hate him sleeping in my bed , I hate him taking up space in general, like I wish he would just leave me alone to get on with my life!!!

I don’t actually think getting this off my chest has helped 😂 it’s just made we want to tell him to get his stuff even more going over everything that’s happened during my pregnancy.

Obviously things were shit before I found out I was pregnant that’s why I left him but must have got pregnant just before leaving 🙄

Almost got away 😂😂😂 I just feel like now I’m trapped with this person

If your still here , Thankyou for reading sorry for the rant xx