I feel like I'll never be able to get excited about a pregnancy ever again . I just had a chemical after having my d and c in October with our first pregnancy . My husband was even upset when I said I had a faint line on Xmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">eve</a> because he was so scared we would miscarry and he was right . It didn't work out . I'm scared that the d and c caused scarring or something . I just want to throw in the towel and be happy that I have my husband and dog . Everyone of my friends has babies or is pregnant it's so hard to get away from it .  I'm just trying to focus on positives like I can snowboard this New Years when we go on vacay and drink and get my hair colored . But in the back of my head I have this fear that it will never happen and these cramps and heavy bleeding are just rubbing it in . It's so frustrating .