Too nervous to find out the gender

UPDATE:

It’s a girl!!!! 💗🎀

You guyssss, I’ve had our gender results sitting in an envelope for 3 weeks now and I’m too nervous to open it! I have two boys and want a girl so bad. My oldest son is dying for a sister and tells me everyday so it doesn’t help the situation. My husband doesn’t care either way but does not want me to be sad. He feels like it’s his fault. Boys run on my husbands side of the family and I just know when I open it it’s going to say boy. This is our last child and I feel like once I open that envelope all my hopes and dreams of ever having a girl will be gone.

But at the same time what if it’s a girl? I want to celebrate that and be excited, and take advantage of this next week of sales since I will need stuff bc I only have boys things.

I just don’t know what to do! Im so nervous to lose that “hope” of maybe it’s a girl.

Obviously healthy baby is the most important thing. Thankfully nipt results and our NT scan went well!

I just need advice what to do!