My husband and I our miserable yet we stay what is love any more?

He can home after being gone 30 hrs hasn’t said a word then looks at me and says ur gonna look like that always everyday all day. I’m like like what excuse me while I’m going through something medically and physically and emotionally I’m drained and then said u

If ur so miserable what are we doing. He wants us to try marriage counseling but I highly think it’s gonna work I want this marriage I thought I did but it’s more draining then anything.! This isn’t love to be emotionally and mentally abused everyday and why is my feelings not matter I’m miscarrying and he expects me to still be the amazing wife and bonus mom I’m still up cleaning and cooking and taking care of his son I just need to relax currently locked myself in the bathroom. Taking a bath gonna push myself to get dressed and do my hair so he won’t complain about my looks. The fuck 🤦🏼‍♀️ I want out so bad I know I deserve better but I don’t have the strength to leave this man uhhhh how to walk away