to start off i’m 19 about to be 20 in less than a month. as a very young teenager, i was raped by an ex boyfriend and ended up having a miscarriage around 9-10 weeks. i went numb for about 2 years after the day i was raped and even tried to commute suicide. now here i am about to be 20 years old and have been in a loving relationship with my boyfriend for 3 years and planning our life together. i’ve always wanted to be a mom ever since i could remember and was devastated that what would have been my first was made out of rape rather than someone who i loved. the miscarriage isn’t something i really talk about and have mentioned to my boyfriend once. i know it’s probably unlikely but i have a fear of miscarrying in the future because of it happening already. i know i’m still young but im starting to get to a point in my life where im finally healing and living the life i want and the life i want with my boyfriend. anyways this is just a rant since i literally have no friends so if you’ve read this far, thanks for taking the time to read and possibly leaving a comment/advice.

Edit: i’m in therapy, i just started.