So my Dad passed away yesterday, it was my daughters birthday. He has been in a long term care home for many years. He had a traumatic brain injury about 9 years ago. I had been trying to get ahold of him by phone since going in to visit it a big no-go due to Covid. Everytime I called he was sleeping. I never got to tell him that I am pregnant with my second child and he only got to meet his granddaughter once (when she was a month old) and talk to her on the phone a few times. Once covid hit we weren't able to get in to visit. I feel like shit and feel so guilty. He had dementia and a brain injury so I am not sure when I did talk to him that he knew who he was taking to or it he remembered it even. Despite that I feel so guilty. I should have tried harder. I just feel like everything that can go wrong has been going wrong recently. In the past few weeks we ahve had to replace our fridge, furnace, AC and now this. I feel like this is just too much stress right now and I don't know how to handle my guilt on top of everything else.