By the way I want y'all to know that I'm so glad I can feel comfortable sharing this here. No bashing please and thank you.

A while back me and my husband Don and I attempted to fulfill my fantasy of mfm with his work husband. And I ended up starting my period in the middle of it so we had to stop. But I let it go bc to be honest I was satisfied with the experience in itself and I wasn't going to push it with don bc in my heart I felt content. So fast forward to yesterday and the idea was presented and we agreed. And we went back and forth between various positions and managed to accomplish DP for minute. Tho after a while we came to a realization that we weren't gonna be able to accomplish DP successfully. So his work husband watched us finish. And Don got up and got dressed and kissed me and told me he loved me and went into the living room where he passed out for a bit while me and his work husband finished. I've never felt like this before. I am content with the outcome of this experience. Even tho I was originally content with the original experience as well. I just wasnt expecting this to happen a second time. But since it did I can honestly say I feel so much Closer to my husband. I feel so loved and secure in our marriage and am excited to be able to help him experience his first fmf threesome. I am so blessed to have my Deathcore King and am excited to see what other bucket list things we can accomplish for us both. I've never been in a relationship this secure and with this much trust. I am so glad that Don is my husband and that we are comfortable enough with each other and trust each other enough to not have to question us as an us. I never thought I'd be in a relationship that I didn't have to question. But here I am. And he doesn't have to question it either. He never has and I know he never will. I'm just proud of myself because during this experience I was able to do things and communicate things that I wasn't able to before and with pure confidence and not second guess it. I was able be comfortable doing things that sexual trauma in my past had made me feel uncomfortable doing after the traumas and I did them without thinking about it and without being triggered to believe it was wrong or make me feel ashamed at all. That's why I'm telling you guys this. Because 6 years ago I couldn't do most of this stuff or didn't want to bc my trauma was so deep that the idea of any of it made me want to crawl into a hole till I became invisible. And thanks to my baby daddy/ex Dave who started helping me thru my sexual trauma and was the only other healthy relationship I've had my whole life and my husband being the second. I've been able to go from the sexually traumatized teenager I felt like to the sexually confident wife and woman that I am.

I hope that those of you out there still feeling your trauma, dealing with your trauma and healing from your trauma can see this and have hope that it doesn't matter what someone has done to you or said to you or tried to make you believe, the only thing that matters is you feel you deal you heal and you remember who God says you are and don't be conformed to what the world says you should do or be but be transformed into who and what God says you are and are to do.

Thank you for letting me share!!!