There are no words to describe the pain of stillbirth. I am sharing for those mamas who have been through it and for those I pray never experience such pain. This was our 3rd child, after 2 healthy baby boys we were beyond excited to welcome a baby girl into our family. This is baby Harper, born sleeping in my belly at 22 weeks.

Story: I had not felt Harper move for a whole evening and when morning came with still no movement I knew something was wrong. I called to get checked that afternoon where on that ultrasound I saw my baby girl lifeless with no heartbeat. She was perfectly healthy the week before, her anatomy scan went perfect. Doctors have no idea what could have happened, they rarely know in cases like this. After several hours in labor and delivery and several checks/ultrasounds it was starting to set in my baby girl would not be coming home with us. After further talk with doctors I decided to get induced, I felt this would be easier than waiting a possible 2 weeks to let my body try to go into labor on its own. So we came back with our bags packed at 8pm December 2nd. Where I began to get induced. I was given a morphine drip for the pain the pain was not as bad as with full term labor in my opinion, physically. Mentally, I was a wreck and I think pain killers helped my anxiety through it all as well. Fast forward to 10am the next day the pain started to get intense and I knew it was time to push. I call a nurse to check me and at 5cm this would be enough to get my sleeping baby out. I start crying knowing that this is the end and where I will be meeting my sleeping Harper. After she came the tears never stopped flowing from anyone in the room.

We held her for hours, kissing her little face and memorizing everything about her. She was perfect. After hours have passed the funeral home came to get her and handing her off was the hardest thing I’ve ever done. We will have a small graveside service for miss Harper Maxwell in the upcoming days. I know she is with Jesus and I have peace in that. But I want her here with us and our hearts are shattered. Please be in prayer for my family. Thank you for allowing me to share my birth story.

Here are some pictures of our baby girl that we had taken for us after delivery❤️