To my husband anymore. Honestly have zero sex drive since having my baby six months ago. My husband abandoned us in the hospital to go get drunk the day my daughter was born and it was my last straw with him really. It replays over in my mind. It really traumatized me. She was being monitored closely for bilirubin, I wasn’t even sure she’d be coming home. I had no ride. I never felt so hurt. I sleep with baby in her room. We haven’t been intimate at all. I told him today I just view him as a friend and he got mad saying he pays for everything and that I need to start paying rent then. That he’s a man with sexual needs and what do I expect him to do. I just don’t have any answers. I also exclusively breastfeed and feel touched out. I never get a ‘break’. A few weeks ago he got into a bad crash because he drunk drove. I honestly didn’t have any sympathy until I saw the truck, he should have been dead. Even after all that I just feel a huge disconnect. He just started AA and is trying more but I feel lost.