I went to my best friend’s gender reveal party for her second baby yesterday. I was so excited to go, and I did have a good time. After they revealed the gender though, I did cry a little. I felt so terrible making it about me (no one saw, I went to the bathroom, so I wasn’t taking away from her day), but I’ve lost two pregnancies, and yesterday marked two months until my due date for the most recent pregnancy, so I was a little emotional anyways. I’m so afraid I’ll never have that moment of finding out my baby’s gender, and every other milestone that pregnancy and motherhood bring. I’m so afraid I’ll never have children, when I feel like it is my biggest purpose in life. I just want to get pregnant, carry my baby full term, and give birth to a healthy, happy baby. I don’t think that’s asking too much.