You know, even more than wanting guys to find me attractive, I really want someone to tell me why I’m not. Because I’m currently in this place where all I can do is speculate, and when I don’t have someone to say to me “oh, it’s because of ___,” I feel like I can’t trust myself.

Like I think I’m pretty cute and have a good personality, but I also know that I have a very unattractive body type and I’m a very intense person to be around for prolonged periods of time. Now that’s all well and good, but when I say that to someone else for a reason why I’m single, they’re like “oh hey, don’t put yourself down like that!” Like no, you’re misunderstanding, I’m not putting myself down intentionally, I’m using the evidence I have on hand to reach the only logical conclusion. You don’t live your entire life rejection after rejection without wondering why, and why else would it be? I’m great at talking to people, and I keep trying. I don’t come on too strong, and I AM putting myself out there. So what’s the issue then?

I just wish I knew what was ACTUALLY wrong, so someone could tell me how to fix it. ‘Cause really, I just want to be wanted.