I usually always have a 28 day cycle. It’s rare for it to not be. Even when I had a miscarriage at 10weeks and it required medical management, I had 28 days from start of the process to my next period. And after a full pregnancy and getting my period back I’ve mostly been 28 days. But last cycle I had a 27 day cycle. This month I had a 26 day cycle. It’s so frustrating because we decided that this next cycle we would try for baby #2. I can’t help but feel that there’s a problem with my body like hormones or folate levels etc. so then I’m spiralling thinking we won’t get pregnant and I’m feeling like things are following the same pattern as when I got pregnant with when I miscarried. Which is giving me anxiety and making me assume I’ll either fail to get pregnant for a while or/and miscarry when I do.

I also feel like I follow a rule of 2. Nothing works out for me first time around.

There’s not really a question. Just wanted somewhere to express myself as my friends and family don’t know we are trying again and wouldn’t understand my obsessive overthinking and controlling ways of setting myself up to fail by having every little detail planned out and preempted.