December 7th our worst fears came true.. my brother who was clean for 4 years lost his life after he relapsed. He was 33. He was an amazing person. He was so kind and loving. He always told me he loved me and that can sometimes be hard for brothers to say to a sister. My brother wasn’t a junkie. He wasn’t a loser. He was a lost soul and he never felt he belonged on this earth. Even through all of those years clean I know the struggle and constant thoughts of his drug of choice plagued him and haunted him. And even from a small child you could sense his inner sadness. He’s no longer in pain. No longer suffering and that brings me peace to know he’s with the lord and my grandfather. I found out a week ago I’m pregnant. I won’t be telling any family till 12 weeks or longer but if it’s a boy which I already sense it is, I will be naming him after our Charlie boy. I love you so much Charlie you’re forever in my heart and soul ❤️ this picture was taken in September. He was beautiful inside out. (Holding my niece) this is such a pure picture because I know in this moment he was truly happy 💛