So, my long distance boyfriend and I are meeting for the first time in a few weeks. We’re both super excited to finally “meet” each other and we decided to spend NYE together. We’re both very open with each other and stuff, and I’m sure there’s sexual tension between us. But you see, I’m a virgin big girl and he’s a skinny dude. Besides my body insecurities with my weight, which I completely embrace, I also worry about my feelings at the time if we end up wanting to get nasty. Like, what do I do?? I know I’m allowed to want it and then say no, and he knows that too. Aaahhh I guess I’m just worried about “ruining” our relationship if I suddenly stop bc I can’t fathom having sex with anyone. Like, I want it sooooo badly and I want it to be him but I’m nervous😭 someone please console me or give me some advice on how to deal with these conflicting emotions🥺