I went in for a medication review on Thursday and my doctor wanted to start a new med but she had to confirm I wasn’t pregnant first. I confidently told her I wasn’t pregnant or even sexually active. Well guess what the test came back positive and I am SHOOK. I’ve had sex twice since having my son October 2021. Both with the same guy, once Mid October and I took a plan B after because he finished in me and my app said it was close to ovulation and again Mid November and I didn’t take a plan B because he pulled out and my app said I was 9 days from ovulation. Jokes on me for thinking those were methods of birth control. Anyway my emotions are everywhere, I feel nothing but dread and doom. I’m not even slightly excited about this pregnancy, I don’t want a second baby and especially not 2 under 2. I’m hoping my feelings change as the pregnancy progresses and I start to feel some love and excitement about the pregnancy but right now I’m just so sad about it. It doesn’t feel like the right time and the dad of the baby said he’d only support me if I had an abortion so his true colors came through. He’s going right on child support.

Thanks for listening to my rant.