Any advice ?? Feedback??

So my husband and I have always had the boundary (or so I thought) of no porn/masterbating and today I come home from a Christmas party and found out he had masterbated while I was gone. He use to be super addicted to porn before we met so my head automatically goes to he watched porn as well. I’m not sure if how I’m feeling is valid but I’m hurt. And I can’t say anything to him because he’ll think I’m crazy ( like he always does when I tell him how I feel). What would you ladies do/ feel?