So I’ve been with my husband since 2015 , got married in 2017 . He used to be great at loving on me occasionally and even with sex it’d be sweet and he’d kiss me all over and go down on me and it’s been a year since he’s done that and a while since we’ve had just actual love making sex . Don’t get me wrong we do still have it like twice a week maybe but I’m always initiating sex I can barely remember the few times he’s initiated it . I just want to feel wanted by him physically and sexually. Generally he knows what I want because we talk about it since it’s become such an issue . I just want to be randomly surprised like we used to … like come behind me and put my vibrator against me or kiss my thighs and go down on me , tease me … SOMETHING ! At this point i just don’t wanna even try to and if he does initiate it I just wanna say nope . It just makes me wanna shout to the top of my lungs “act like you fucking want me !”