I don’t feel anything yet :(

Darcie • Two toddler boys plus twin girls coming in July 💜

We wanted this baby… but I’m 6 weeks and I just don’t feel connected to him/her yet. Idk I just only feel dread. The timing just doesn’t feel right at all. My husband and I are struggling as a couple and with our two kids we have already. I feel so bad for not feeling anything good about this baby yet. Does anyone else feel like this? I’m just sad and scared and nothing feels right. I ordered a gender blood test, maybe knowing the gender will help me feel something…