I feel bad for not testing but testing make me freak out due to miscarriage in Oct

LK 👼🌈💙

I took the below test on Monday just before I went for a hcg bloodwork and that came back at 212 for 4w1d (lot higher this time then last time). I haven’t tested since and I see people testing up to 6 weeks. ( I go back next Tuesday for bloods and Wednesday for a scan)

Is it ok to just stop testing and if a chemical or a miscarriage is going to happen it is going to happen it’s out of my control. I just feel guilty for not testing everyday. I just want to be able to get up in the morning and finish the day with no bleeding or pain and get another day closer to being “safe” (had bleeding from the day I found out I was pregnant in September to the day I actually miscarried at 6wks)