Abortion or no abortion? Help ☹️

Hi, I’m just looking for some advice.

I have recently found out that I am unexpectedly pregnant (around 8 weeks). I have two young children one who is just under one and the other 4 and I’m 50-50 about what to do.

I am debating whether or not it would be better for me and my family to have a termination. With the cost of living I’m worried about money (we both work full time but still a worry), we’d need a bigger car, I was hoping to change my career In the next year, we’d be paying double nursery fees In the future.

I’m worried about the impact it may have on my children, they are both very demanding, co-sleep with me and the youngest is quite hard work (they have a milk allergy, quite emotional, never slept a full night). I’m also worried about how I’ll cope, I found the jump from 1-2 so much harder than 0-1.

But, I am also worried that I might regret it in the future if I do decide not to go through with this pregnancy. I’ve spent most of the time crying since I found out on Monday, the thought of a termination is breaking my heart. I’m worried I’ll suffer mentally after, as I’m already feeling sadness and guilt. I’m worried I’ll suffer with fertility issues or never have the chance to have another baby again as I know I 100% would like more children in the future.

There are a few other reasons either side but I’m so torn on what to do for the best. We have the most amazing family and friends who have said they will support us in whatever decision we make.

Has anyone on here had a termination and really regretted/not regretted It? Any advice I would be really grateful.