Social Anxiety? ASD?
Finally taking medication after depression for 5 years, I know symptoms for both seem to overlap
I was just wondering if it's a possibility to have ASD? I dont have sensory issues but when it comes to little things I get slightly frustrated, or my mood just worsens if I'm overwhelmed?
Getting out of shower sucks, dripping wet hair down my back, wet feet touching floor, sticky clothes, pruney hands, lotion hands, a fucking single droplet going down my sleeve. Maybe I'm just mad with inanimate objects in general. My closet doesn't close, my door creaks back open very loudly and slowly and it frustrates me greatly. My brothers make me upset very quickly with their rowdiness, fidgeting, every little thing.. so draining. they will screech loudly and unexpectedly with no warning, talk at the same, drives me nuts. Trying to buy noise cancelling headphones because my brothers drive me crazy. it makes me mad how they dont pick up after themselves, we share rooms and if they dont clean it up their mess my day feels ruined, i dont feel compelled to do anything unless i myself clean it (because they wont unless i absolutely yell at them) . I hate parties. left prom earlier because it was too loud and my head hurt. socially awkward as fuck, bad at social gatherings. cant make eye contact (can, but choose not to sometimes because it's so uncomfortable), always having hard time maintaining friends, super lonely after high school. Bites nails. Dont really do anything regarding stimming unless I'm super nervous or awkward, I'll sway my feet back and forth or bounce my leg or crack my knuckles or tap my fingers together and little things etc, i get weird stares so i try not to. got that bouncy walk and do the little spoon thing 🤨 I just want answers because I have read personal accounts of both social anxiety and asd and they make me cry. I just feel so burnt out and miserable after high school.
Most previous friends i have seem to be on spectrum or have adhd . Ive had few people get mad at me because i dont open up after years of knowing me, and with others i will open up right away. Idk. still hard to make friends though. Just looking for answers I guess, it wont help with anything but i just need closure or to possibly see a therapist lol i just feel like i make people uncomfortable a lot when i feel like im being myself, and I get asked shit like "you good?" when im completely fine or in a good mood and it makes me feel like wtf did i do.. 😓 the only reason I'm researching all of this is because my coworker has a brother with autism and said I'm autistic . but i know most symptoms seem similar regarding social anxiety and asd
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