Feeling sad

Erin

Tonight we had our best friends over for a game night and it was so fun.. but one of my friends (who I love dearly) who just got married in September told us she is pregnant… early pregnant but still, it stings.

My husband and I have been trying ( with varying effort levels) for 2 years now and as happy as I am for her, I am so sad for me. Now I am the only one in that group of friends without a baby. And I still feel like I can’t talk about being infertile or having struggles because it all came so easily for them and they just won’t fully get it. And I don’t want to throw myself a pity party… but I kinda do.

I guess I’m just wallowing. I made an infertility joke to the last friend that left (many beers deep) and my husband was upset about it. We had a chat after everyone left and he got sad about it too.

Anyone wanna join my pity party?