I need help i don’t need hate i need help i am writing this because i am scared that im going to hurt my daughter she’s almost 2 and im 12 weeks pregnant i have no family to talk to or friends. she has been so bad lately she screams at the top of her lungs and will not stop i’ve walked away when i feel myslef getting mad but sometimes i can’t help but scream at her and then i comfort her after. i feel like such an awful mom lately i havnt been keeping the house clean like i normally would and i find myself less patient than i would usually be. her father is around but frankly if he’s not working he’d sleeping he works night shift so he sleeps all day and is gone all night and on his days off he sleeps all day literally won’t even get up to use the bathroom. i have begged and i have pleaded with him when i need help with her and he will not wake up he’s a recovering addict and i just found out today 2 months ago he started using again. i’m lost i feel helpless i feel worthless i feel like i a horrible mother and i can’t even focus on keeping my daughter healthy and okay let alone this baby inside of me. and now everytime she starts that screaming stuff again i’m afraid i’m gonna hit her or something i went to her dad and i told him how i was feeling and that i needed help and he wouldn’t even open his eyes i can’t do this anymore i feel myself giving up everyday and i don’t know what the future holds for this baby inside

me but i know that after christmas my daughter and i will most likely be going to a shelter till i can get us started new and without him. i’m scared about all this but i’m terrified i’m gonna lash out and hurt her one of these days. what can i do? how can i keep calm with her and any advice on her screaming fits? if you read all of this thank you .