I have a gash and a bruise on my forehead. When my husband asked what happened, I told him I tripped over one of our daughter’s toys. I don’t feel like I can tell him the truth, which is that I was so frustrated with both my kids this morning that I banged my head against the wall. I am so overwhelmed having a toddler and a newborn. In that moment I started to consider what would happen if I just left. I feel like my kids would be so much better off with just my husband, and that he would be better off finding someone new to be with. None of them asked for this. My kids didn’t ask to have a shitty mom who cries all the time and wants to scream at them. I was the one who said I wanted another baby and told my husband I’d be able to handle it, and I was dead wrong. My toddler ends up watching TV all day because I’m so burnt out. My newborn cries every time I set her down but I can’t do everything for my toddler while I’m wearing her so I have to put her down sometimes, and hearing her cry makes me want to rip my hair out. I want better for them and I am just not it.