Sorry long post 😔. Currently having a miscarriage after our last embryo decided not to stick at 6 weeks. We were so excited that it had stuck and hcg was 711 on first test and 14700 a week later then it all changed Monday night when I had a sudden rush with clots and pain - bloodtest Thursday morning has HCG down to 2300. We’ve been doing <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">ivf</a> for 13 years now with so many operations, stim cycles, fresh transfers and frozen transfers that I have honestly lost count, we have had 6 chemical pregnancies, 4 miscarriages and so many failed transfers. We were blessed to have success in 2021 and now have our beautiful little girl but I honestly don’t think I can do it all again. I am 40 now and I just feel so absolutely defeated and I don’t think I can mentally go through everything again. Hubby says we can do whatever I want to do - he will support me with whatever I choose but right now I feel like we should just accept where we are at and focus on giving our little girl the best life we possibly can. I’m scared that anymore failure would just break me and then what sort of mum would I be to our daughter but there is still a part of me that says I shouldn’t give up. I know right now is probably not the best time to think about where to from here but I can’t help it. Thanks for reading this far if you got to here sometimes you just need to vent. Merry Christmas everyone and good luck with all your pregnancy plans and dreams.